6:57 AM

So far this morning I've been spiraling over my job and what I should do about it. I'm really leaning towards getting a new job but that feels like the most extreme option. I should see about changing my availability first and see if I get more hours before saying fuck it and leaving. Though honestly do I really want to make it work? I've been calling it a dead end job for years. I don't know/like most of my co-workers. No benefits. The only problem is that I absolutely do not have a new one lined up and I'm not very confident I'm going to be able to find one right now so making it work it is!

I'm trying not to think too hard about it right now because I'm working myself up really bad. So instead I've been doing shit around the house to keep my mind off it. I finally did a water change for my aquarium, which sounds horrible but it's my planted 29 gallon that's very lightly stocked. It's fine going awhile without one I just felt bad for not fussing over it like I've been my gecko's terrarium lately. Mainly just trying to figure out how to best keep humidity in it since I live in the midwest so my house is dry as fuck right now but it's good now. I think I'm going to vacuum and wash the floors too because I should start cleaning up again before Christmas. I don't know what the plan is but I'm probably going to be hosting at least Christmas Eve or Day since my house¹ is bigger and has a dining room.

I reviewed my finances too since I might as well get them sorted for the new year. I canceled my Second Life premium sub since I realized again that the game is just a money sink for me. As much as I love playing dress up with our avatars and decorating skyboxes I'm better off just getting back into modded Minecraft. Can do the same shit for free and I'm improving my art skills while I'm at it. I'm choosing not to renew my (let's be honest here) vanity domain reachn.one so I had to shuffle around my blog and rss reader. I'm aware I can only cut back so much but it doesn't hurt to cancel things I know I don't really need and it also makes me feel a little better.